5 Ekim 2017 Perşembe

grow your buds

the way that we often close our eyes,
is to run away from what we want to avoid.
but what we avoid, will never leave us if we never confront.
you can "bury" things that you don't want to think or feel or see but
they will come back to you if you do not acknowledge that they are there.
so just acknowledge what there is and what exists
and watch them
let them leave you
or send them light + love
to see them heal and transform into something
that will grow your buds from your seed.

stop trying hard // artificial romance

the other day i remember - in the midst of a  night in which I had a couple of glasses of wine asking a friend a really important question. well, it is a question i should ask my self first and foremost but i asked him only to get a weird response I never expected:
 why isn't it working?

regardless of the context of the question, there was one thing in my life I really wanted to figure out and I did not know how to approach the problem:
because you are trying so hard, he said. stop trying so hard.

interesting, i thought. On the contrary, the "crazy" things I do to get something done or stuff I say are never "hard" for me to do. It is the easy way to be "crazy" or a bit out of normal with some stuff I say or do.

interesting, that people are now so numb to their own selfs and just so used to conforming to what the society expects from them and how my friend was categorizing something so humane as something "too much of a try". it is harder for me, to conform. it is harder to accept that i am a robot and just do stuff just because.

i seek meaning in whatever i do. and yes maybe i make some "mistakes"i.e. stuff that i might potentially regret for a while only to understand that there is no such thing as a mistake. its all of a part of our individual evolutions, everything we do. so,
me being a bit "romantic" is not trying hard, my dear friend.
you being too "simple" is trying hard, to let go of all the humanistic values we have in the midst of a "artificial intelligence evolution"- because artificial intelligence might work but i highly doubt that artificial romance will.